As far back as I can remember, I've been incredibly turned on by the thought of a woman, who is involved in reluctant or non-consentual sex, "giving in" to the pleasure and her lust. The thought of her going from begging for it to stop, to begging for it not to stop turns me on so very much. A little more recently, my fetish has evolved to it taking place in the presence of her SO, who is helpless to do anything, and if she is fighting with herself between her lust and her guilt, its even better. Most recently, my fetish has evolved to be about my fiancee. The fantasy usually goes something like this: Someone rapes her while I'm tied down and watching. She's begging for him to stop, but slowly starts to get wetter and wetter and eventually begins to fuck him back, still asking for it to stop. She gets more and more into it, wrapping her legs and arms around him, this time asking "not in front of my fiance..." feeling so guilty for enjoying it that tears are rolling down her face and sobs punctuate her pleasure moans. Soon enough she looses all control and begs him to cum inside her unprotected pussy, something that she doesn't let her own fiancee do, while she is rocked with an insanely powerful orgasm and stares at me with a look that says, "I'm so sorry.. but I can't help it. It feels so good..." and she kisses him on the mouth and asks for more of his cum in her pussy. Here's where I need some help/advice: I have no idea how to express this fetish to my fiancee. Its not something I would ever feel comfortable doing, I just think it would make good pillow talk. We currently role-play sometimes and dabble in rape fantasy and she know that it drives me crazy when she starts to want it and starts to "give in" but we've really never discussed it. How do I bring it up to her without making her feel like I don't treasure her, which couldn't be farther from the truth. In reality, id never be okay with her giving herself to someone else. But then why is this fantasy so sexy to me? And is there anywhere that anyone knows I can get stories or videos about this subject, or possibly a group of people with the same fantasy? Is there a name for this fetish? Its specificly about her "giving in", not just about her being with another man. It has to start out being non concentual. Any comments or help would be greatly appreciated.