Terrible thoughts about body image and self-confidence | Save. Spend. Splurge.
I was in a store the other day – Bershka – and I couldn't even get a SMALL pair of pants up over my knees.
I basically had a meltdown in the dressing room. I have always been at least XS, S … even Medium if I wanted a looser fit, but never ever, have I not been able to get a SMALL pair of pants up over my knees.
I was demoralized, and immediately had thoughts about how I had basically let my health go.
I started seeing chunks of fat and excess flab all over my body. I am especially self-conscious about my armpits / upper arm area.
I am not toned, I don't work out, and it probably shows, I thought.
I felt bad the entire day.
.. then as I was in bed, I was thinking… that even with vanity sizing being what it is in North America (how can I be a size 4 and a size 0!?), I realized that perhaps it was just the label.
This, must have been one of them. NOT MEANT FOR ME.
These are just arbitrary, made-up numbers from brands deciding what cut equals a Small or a "0".
Instead of feeling terrible about my body and my self-worth, I just know not to shop there. It is not a style or a cut for me, and I have to accept that.
If there IS something I like, I just need to take a size Medium or Large, and know that it is the SAME CUT as my size 4 pants or size Small pants from other brands.
It's only a tag on a piece of cloth.
It doesn't and shouldn't determine what my self worth is or should be.
A stupid tag with an arbitrary number on a piece of clothing.
All that matters is how I feel (healthy and fine although I could increase the exercise bit, to be sure), and how the rest of my entire wardrobe fits.
If my belt still buckles at the same belt hole, I am FINE.
I'm 5'2, 108 lbs and wear a size M at Bershka. Their sizing runs small!
Good to hear. I was thinking — WHAT THE HECK.
I hear you. It is difficult being on Instagram sometimes.