Contributor Update, Joy Lanzendorfer
April 1, 2021 March 26, 2021 Superstition Review
Join Superstition Review in congratulating past contributor Joy Lanzendorfer on her forthcoming book, Right Back Where We Started From, out May 4th. In this debut novel, Joy tells the story of Sandra Sanborn, an eager young women looking to be discovered in Hollywood during 1930s, whose life is thrown off track when she receives a letter from a man who says he is her father. Through this narrative, Joy creates "a sweeping, multigenerational work of fiction that explores the lust for ambition that entered into the American consciousness during the Gold Rush and how it affected our nation's ideas of success, failure, and the pursuit of happiness. It's a meticulously layered saga—at once historically rich, romantic, and suspenseful—about three determined and completely unforgettable women."
"From the California Gold Rush to the to the San Francisco earthquake, through the Great Depression and World War II, Joy Lanzendorfer artfully weaves a beautifully textured saga. Yearnings, secrets, and shame shape the lives of three generations of American women as they dare to question the rigid societal expectations that confine them to proscribed roles and stifle ambition. Gripping prose and complex and memorable characters make this shining debut novel a pleasure to read."
Liza Nash Taylor, author of Etiquette for Runaways and the forthcoming In All Good Faith.
To pre-order your copy of Right Back Where We Started From click here. Also, be sure to check out Joy's website and Twitter as well as her past work in Issue 5.
Contributor Updates ambition, earthquake, Etiquette for Runaways, Fiction, gold rush, Great Depression, historically rich, In All Good Faith, Issue 5, Joy Lanzendorfer, Liza Nash Taylor, multigenerational, Right Back Where We Started From, romantic, societal expectations, suspenseful, women, world war 2 Leave a comment
Guest Blog Post, Ashley Caveda
February 9, 2013 April 4, 2013 Ashley Caveda
As a person who uses a wheelchair, there are a lot of strangers who take great pains to acknowledge my bravery. You know, for having the fortitude to keep on rollin'. I simply smile and thank them, and maybe laugh a little to myself. But the truth is, I want them to be right. Bravery, it would seem, ought to be pretty standard issue for a person who considers herself a writer of memoir.
The trouble is that I'm not brave. Even those days when a storm blows just loudly enough to remind me how cozy my home is—the kind of day that's made for writing and sipping tea—I have to coax myself to the computer. I'm likely to invent some horrible task to occupy my time before finally settling down to work, like scraping out the cat's litter box or, heaven help me, exercising. Over the years, instructors and peers have repeated the same chorus: "Get your butt in the chair and the writing will happen!" Well, pardon me, but my butt's always in the chair.
Assuming the position of a dedicated writer doesn't seem to be enough, at least for me. I'm a little ashamed to admit it, but I find writing almost never comes naturally. What does come naturally is fear. In fact, I fear everything I write is the stupidest, most boring thing anyone has ever written in the history of the universe.
That's a pretty heavy load to bear. To be the one person who has written the stupidest thing in the whole universe.
Yeah. That was me. Nice to meet you.
So, what can be done? How can I combat this overwhelming sense that I'm not good enough, that I'm not as talented as so-and-so, that I'm revealing far too much of myself and should be ashamed of every admission I make on the page? Even this one.
Well, I don't know exactly. What I do know is that I want that thing I had when I was 8, sitting cross-legged on the floor writing stories by hand in a black-and-white composition notebook. Filling pages without stopping to question a particular phrasing or the impact my words may or may not have on posterity. Sure, maybe I spelled 'they' with an 'a' instead of an 'e,' but at least I didn't toss a story in the garbage just because a bathtub floating in an ocean filled with pirates seemed too ridiculous. I just wrote.
My older brother once told me he wanted to become a chef. When I asked him why he didn't apply to a culinary institute, he said, "Because it's just easier to go home at night and play video games." And he was right. It takes bravery to face failing at something you really want. Unfortunately, my courage in writing seems to share an inverse relationship with my age.
The good news is that, over time, I think I've discovered that I can substitute bravery with an equal measure of faith. The faith necessary to continue writing what I know is no good. Such faith allows me to tack the word 'yet' to the end of that criticism.
My mentor, Lee Martin, always tells me to drown out the critical voices and to just have a conversation with myself on the page. This practice reminds me that it's okay—possibly even really important—for my ambition to outweigh my talent. It's okay to hate what I've written. I have to remember that I love writing and that what I really hate is feeling inadequate. It's okay if I'm not that brave. I just have to have faith that underneath the rambling is the germ of an idea that at some point, with weeks and months of revision, might actually become something I'm proud to say I wrote.
Guest Posts ambition, Ashley Caveda, bravery, courage, culinary institute, faith, fear, Lee Martin, Memoir, posterity, wheelchair, Writing 10 Comments