I would either
tweak on music,
or I would just
get on my computer
and go into the sickest
world of internet porn
or whatever and get
sucked into that.
It was just so grimy.
First time I
tried drugs I was
8 years old.
It was '78.
And my mom was a nurse,
my dad was a banker.
And they would
just go to work.
And so we were in this
little neighborhood
and the school was
three houses down.
So we walked home and just
rode bikes in our
neighborhood.
We didn't go outside
of the neighborhood
and it was safe.
So we thought.
My friend was eight too
and his brother
was a teenager
and he was smoking
weed all the time.
And so we snuck in his
room and stole a little roach.
And we went and tried to
smoke it and everything.
I don't know.
We didn't know how to
inhale or nothing.
So, but that was the first
time I tried any drugs.
When I was growing
up I never did drugs
in my teenage years,
which is crazy.
I picked up the harder
stuff early 20's.
And it's just stupid.
'Cause I made it through
my teenage years,
like hardly
doing anything.
And actually there was
this really hot girl
that did it at a party.
And I wanted to
hang out with her.
And so I did it.
It was this pink stuff.
Like biker crank speed.
And she was
just so pretty.
And she was doing it,
and I was like, heeey.
Let me do some!
And I did it
and I remember going home
and trying to go to sleep
and I was like,
this sucks.
I'm never gonna do
this stuff again.
And I didn't for like
another couple of years.
And then I was
drunk one night
and I did it.
And I was like,
you know what,
you're not supposed
to try to sleep,
you're supposed
to try to stay up.
So work with the drug.
Maybe it will be
better this time.
And I liked it then.
And then I started.
Bad choice.
And when you do meth,
I would either
tweak on music
or I would just
get on my computer
and go into the sickest
world of internet porn
or whatever and get
sucked into that
for like hours.
It was just so grimy.
But when you're in it,
and the high on the meth,
it's like you
don't feel it
But then afterwards,
like the next day
I just feel like the
sickest pervert.
I've been clean from
drugs for 11 years.
Life is so good.
And it's like,
we always try to
just kill ourselves, you
know, with whatever.
And but it just feels good
to feel good, you know?
I'm having the best time
with my guys in Korn.
Most of them
are all sober.
And it's like we're
healthy, happy guys.
You know, humble,
everyone's so humble too.
Sometimes I wish I could
just have a couple drinks
with the guys,
with friends.
But I can't do that.
So I miss that.
I don't miss the gutter.
So that's what
meth is, a gutter.
It took me a couple times
before I was done, done.
So if you quit,
and you're doing good
and you fall on your face,
just brush your knees off
and get back up
and keep walking,
In this life we get many
chances to start over,
so just keep starting over
until you're new.
Brand new.
You know?
