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- Something I've been
working through lately
is this feeling of uncertainty
and actively living with it.
I've taken and documented a
lot of risks over the years
and it feels like they're all
kind of catching up with me.
I work for myself, and with that comes
an absurd amount of
uncertainty constantly.
Will my company even still
be here this time next year?
I can't speak on what the future holds,
that the beauty of life is
that it's constantly changing
and throwing you curveballs.
I've said before that life
doesn't pause for laughter.
Feeling the weight of uncertainty,
it can make you wanna just
break down and give up
but that's the thing about living.
Life keeps moving forward
whether you do or not.
What helps me to keep going
in this years-long journey
of uncertainty that I seem
to be on is a simple phrase:
I don't know.
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I don't know when acknowledging
that you don't know anything
or something became taboo,
but the longer I live
and the more I experience of this world
and try to figure out my place within it,
the more I realize that I
don't know anything at all.
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I think in this lifetime you barely end up
scratching the surface of existence
and the more you learn and know,
the more you realize
how much you don't know
and will probably never know.
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I don't know is an answer.
It's definitely not one
that people like to hear
but it is a truth and a valid one.
And you can try and
soften it a little bit,
add some filler phrases to
make it go down smoother.
But I think that's optional.
I have a goal of hitting 100 K subscribers
here on this channel.
Do I think I'll actually hit that?
I don't know.
Probably not.
If I do hit it, will I even enjoy it?
I don't know.
Will I ever have kids?
I don't know.
Will I always be married?
Man, I hope so, but a lot
can happen in a lifetime,
so I don't know.
I don't think the joy in living
comes from knowing or not knowing.
I think the joy in
living comes from trying,
trying in spite of the obvious uncertainty
just to see where it takes you.
Something that I do know for
certain is that I'm trying.
I'm still trying to grow,
I'm still trying to have
meaningful connections and relationships.
I'm still trying to forge
a career for myself.
And I'm okay with you all
seeing me try and potentially,
if not definitely, failing.
Yeah, that feels right.
I don't know if this video
will be helpful per se,
but I know I definitely
need this video right now.
For me.
In my life.
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If you made it this far in
the video, I'm Hallease.
I'm a digital storyteller
and video producer
and on this channel, I
document my chaotic good life.
A want to say thank you
to my Patreon producers
for continuing to be my production team
here on this channel.
if you're interested,
patreon.com/hallease.
There you get early access to videos
as well as private weekly
vlogs from me, so check it out
if you're interested, no pressure.
Again, if you're new here,
thanks for stopping by.
Keep trying, please.
And I'll see you when I see you.
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