AmberDynamo’s blog

I would like to search inside
for all of the things that you will hide
What's the problem?
Can't you seem to
search through these problems that haunt and taunt you
I smile, while you're afraid
Your run, while you're so in pain
Do you ever see it [out from] outside your fears
Thinking about your life
Thinking about your inner fears
I would like to search inside
for...

I can't stand the sight of you
I can't stand what you put me through
Your life's a lie, that you hide
Is it that terrible being you inside?
I can't stand, oh, the thought of you
I can't stand all the things you do
What do you try to justify?
You were just too scared to be you inside
Let!
It all go
(I look) at you, all I see, is a man too afraid to really be
I can't...

Go!
I can, in every way
Mistake the pain I feel inside
It comes to me
Evil thoughts is creeping through my mind
Who are you to say that I can't speak what's on my mind?
It runs away
It's so predictable
I can, in every way, feel the stress that tangles up inside
Too blind to see, emptiness and sorrow of their lives
You run away to the cover of their pointless ties
You...

HIV!
Here I am different in this normal world
Why did you tease me? Made me feel absurd
Fucking stereotypes feeding their heads
I am ugly. Please just go away
HIV!
I can see it's hard to find
This blessing in disguise
HIV!
Why do you treat me this way?
Made the hate stay (Made the hurt stay)
I sound like I can never seem to escape
all the laughing, all the pain...

I hide only to defy you
Take away the only love inside you
I see the face through everyone
Inside I've just begun!
You think I'm out to scare you
I'm only out to prepare you for when you stop and turn around
Your body's going down!
You're gonna waste your time,
Your life will soon be mine,
You're definitely one of a kind, and
You're suffering 'cause of me, it's divine...

I, I am confused, fighting myself
Wanting to give in, needing your help
Skin cold with fear, feel it when we touch
Outside I don't know you, but inside I'm fine (fucked)
Can you see it in me?
Skin cold from touch
Each day confronted with what I have done
You pull me closer, I push you away
You tell me it's OK, I can't help but feel the pain
I hate you!
Why are you...

There you are alone
With no hope of ever having
Something to be proud of
Something earned without begging
Yes, I know you're a person
A person close to me
Who do think you are?
And what do you want from me?
(Ball tongue)
You got the dykes off I think they'll mind me
(Ball tongue)
The rag I'm on, we are justified
(Ball tongue)
Congrats you just fucked up my make-up...

Are you ready?!
This place inside my mind, a place I like to hide
You don't know the chances. What if I should die?!
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain
You don't know the chances. I'm so blind!
Another place I find to escape the pain inside
You don't know the chances. What if I should die?!
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain
You don't know the...