However, although I had visited many monasteries and had long discussions with bishops and abbots, I did not feel ready or willing to accept such a responsibility.
Kuid vaatamata sellele, et olin külastanud mitmeid mungakloostreid ning piiskoppide ja abtidega pikalt mõtteid vahetanud, ei tundnud ma, et oleksin valmis kandma sellist vastutust ning ka ei olnud mul selleks tahtmist.