I love my morning reading time; snuggling with a passage or book as I sip my morning coffee. As of late I've been reading The Call by Oriah Mountain Dreamer. I resonate with her fully and, like most good reads, it seems that whenever I open the pages, the passage is a perfect reflection of that moment in my life.
Today's chapter is entitled Lost and begins: "In some ways, experiencing the deep peace of being awake to what you are and then losing connection with this awareness, feeling unable to wake up instantly, can be more painful than when you are unconscious."
Having a seasonal break in my business schedule, I've had opportunity to rest and relax, even sleep late. December's been a month of no-rushing; a fantastic switch from the prior three which were very filled with all sorts of delights. Taking it easy, though, is a learned practice, especially for a business owner, and I'm glad to have received its gifts.
As I sit reflecting, though, I'm noticing a blankness. Not so much an empty space as much as a fog covering the energy of next step. Perhaps I've been sitting too long. Blowing it away to invite my passion or purpose to show itself brightly is what I'm looking to take place. Hmmmm... There's also a slight fear that accompanies this fog sensation, for a brief moment wondering if I'll be driven to live from the heart again. Of course I know this is part of the whole impermanent nature of things and, having experienced this many times, feel assured that, by releasing my grasp of this fear, all will flow in due time and I will soon be met again by my powerhouse 'take charge and create change' energy. Perhaps it will arrive tomorrow. The feelings of now are part of the deep energy of winter, a natural state of being. I'm happy to recognize this.
As you reflect on 2014 moving into 2015, what is your level of awake-ness? Do you, as I do, ebb and flow in between living in Spirit and the Doing world, bewildered at times how busyness captured your attention so deeply that you were transported to an unconscious mind? How do you keep yourself steady and strong?
How to live in this world but not Be this world? That's a question that's presented itself to me since I took that first step into Presence. Ease seems to be a key ingredient in being able to do this yet there is always that forgetfulness that shows up at various junctures. Doing is so energizing...we can get lost very easily.
Stopping, reflecting, meditating in all its various forms, retreating when we can...these are all grace points to Be, at least for me. I'm interested in hearing more from you. What supports your practice of presence? How do you stay in Spirit? Please share so we can all learn from and support one another.