i'm a bit worried about my exams too. if i don't qualify for the 4th year, i have no idea what i'll do. the sole long-term plan i have for my life is to do a masters.
chin up. you don't know that you haven't got the grades!
Yeah I guess you're right but I'm still fairly sure I've failed, I didn't know any of the questions, wrote less than a page for a 40minute essay, that's how much I sucked.
Have you done your exams yet or still to do them?
I have just given up hope, people say I'll get better, but I don't see that I am ill.
Why're you shaken up? Glad to hear your maths went ok.
How is it possible that you can all be so nice? I don't mean that you shouldn't be, but I've never met a group of people in my life who are as caring as all of you; I can't say the same about people in the rest of the forums. If it wasn't for the fact that I've sworn to myself that I won't be coming back here after today, I can imagine that you'd all be able to make me feel better than I do now, but I can't stay here while my ex is here, it's not fair on her. I wish you all luck and hope that you will all soon be as happy as you deserve to be.
Edit: Oh, and most gratefully returned to all that have given.
i'm literally here in bed just bawling my eyes out. i need someone to know what i've been through and just be here for me. How ****** up is it that i have 2 people i could see right now, one is ignoring me despite knowing i'm on the verge of killing myself and one is the guy who raped me.
I don't know what to do tonight. I'm petrified of going to sleep but i have nobody to turn to. I'm having one of those nights where i'm actively trying not to kill myself. i don't even know the words to express what i'm feeling right now. i want to put this in someone elses head just so that they understand and i don't have to say anything. this is too much for one person to handle.
i've tried putting it into words so many times but it aint happening. I'm trying to talk to my ex but i don't think he quite understands. whenever i told him about stuff i smiled through and made light of it so he doesn't really understand how horrible it all was. I want to be able to make him feel what i feel.
I know it's a terrible thing to say, especially here, but at times i feel like nobody else has any idea what this pain is like. like i'm totally alone in how i feel.
I'm so tired but i'm absolutely terrified that i'll have another night like last night. I woke myself and james up last night because I was screaming. explaining that wasn't so easy.
how are you tonight? why shaken up?
16 hours. Hm, that lasted long. Is it wrong that these past few months I've deliberately eaten food containing gluten (been a coeliac all my life)?
Singing and drinking (though not together) seem to be my therapy at the moment. And learning Mandarin. And playing the piano/composing for the piano. Music's my only constant and I'd be damned without it.
Not really feeling any better today. not dead though, which i guess is a plus.
what happens? finishing uni or something?
can you identify what's made you feel so bad?
As for what's making me feel bad, I wish I could, but I can't. It's just a low mood. It happens, I see-saw all the time from good to bad. C'est La Vie.
Why are you feeling low?
ugh, that's the worst. at least if you have triggers you can avoid them.
it's partly having absolutely terrible dreams for the last few weeks, partly my partner deciding to make me feel worthless and partly worrying about my upcoming abuse therapy. starting to feel like my anti depressants just aren't doing anything as well. wish i had some fukitol.
What pills and dose you on? Maybe it needs upping?
i can't remember what i'm on, but my counsellor said i should mention it next time i'm at the doctor.
Please do, if you feel they're not working, especially if you've been on the same one for a while, the dose might need upping. Hope it works out.