Status: good. really good. still. But, a little uncomfortable. I've been booted from my comfortable working space due to some upgrades and such. This will take about a week to complete. So, I've ensconced myself in an Indigo for today, tomorrow will be the Library, maybe. Want to do some reading on Buddhism and Meditation, so I think that will be the best place spend the day .
Burning through a book by Dan Harris called 10% Happier which is about his journey to discover peace of mind/focus through meditation. I started meditating in April of last year, and while I've found it useful I think I need to take the next step in order to optimise it for my purposes. He also talks a lot about Buddhism, which is where the meditation comes from, and the whole philosophy around it. I'm intrigued. Not interested in the more mystical aspects, but embracing change and the impermanence of life seems like a good approach. And as a bonus it compliments my interest in minimalism.
My date yesterday texted me 10 minutes before we were due to meet, which was after I left the house, and said that she was running late. No problem, I responded, what's your ETA? She said, 30 minutes-ish later than our original meeting time. I'm standing in the hallway outside my unit and the elevator has just arrived. I pause. The elevator leaves. I tell her that I have a limited amount of time. She asks if we should reschedule, to which I agree. She then apologises, which I appreciated.
I have to admit: I have zero tolerance for people who are cavalier with my time. I'm trying to be a bit more forgiving and a bit more "zen" about these things, however from past experience this has never been a good sign. If she's late on the very first date, then this is going to be an ongoing trend. The issue with this is that I'm basically being told that she is the most important person in this interaction, and that my time is not valuable. In other words, she has no respect for my time and therefore has no respect for me. If she has no respect then making a good impression on the first date becomes irrelevant. It's incidental to the process.
I don't want to devote time and energy to this situation and this kind of behaviour. So, I accepted the apology and left it at that. If she's really interested in meeting and it really was an accident then I think she should be the one to initiate a conversation around making arrangements to try and meet again. If she reaches out to me then I'll agree to meet with her. If not, then I'll take it as disinterest and therefore will not devote any more time to this. After all, I can make better use of my time with the other options on the table………….