I guess i could have posted this on the previous crisis but i decided it should be okay.so let me go back.i went to the hospital for the burn and they said it didn't look that bad i was dehydrated that was all so i had iv fluids.i knew the psychiatrist there and basically what shed do which was send me home but this time i was supposed to go to partial which never happened i did not want to miss out on my young adult group or therapy plus i didnt like listening to peoples drama.so im at home one night and my mom goes out to my aunts then work .im waiting for my dad then i realized he wasnt there just my brother. And i took out a waffle iron in the kitchen but didn't use it.then i realized the stove was left on but instead of all that i stuck my hand in the garbage disposal. Id done it last year around Christmas and it wasnt like i chopped a finger off just cuts and not being able to move them for a couple days.this left a small gash and parents never noticed on that day or the next when i briefly did.but its like three or four days now and im in pain its a small wound on one hand though the others slightly bigger one finger is slightly swollen id give it a 6 or 7 on pain scale.theres no pus its just red and hurting.i tried contacting my casemanger shes stalling me till tomorrow i dont want to go to er cause that female so and so psychiatrist does not care no one in that er cares for me they all think im nuts.i also dont want people saying stuff like superficial so in order to go id have to stick my hand back down and make the wound bigger.or they wont take it seriously.if you dont believe me i jumped from a high shelf in bathroom to try and hurt myself messed up my knee they just said whats wrong with jumping.but it does hurt mainly when i have to move something or hold heavy things.