Sat Sri Akal everyone. I came from humble beginnings but with the hard work of my parents to see their children succeed, I studied hard and had a good job. I got married and have two kids and had everything, my own house and car. Everything was wonderful. Then about two years ago, things started to go wrong. I lost my job and from then on I could never get a job. I have had many opportunities for jobs and other ventures since then, but when its very near, it just doesnt materialise. In the last two years, I have grown closer to Sikhi and pray everyday, yet the light never shines on me. My family is wonderful and supportive, but I am extremely depressed but havent showed them. I ma the pillar of the family and cant show them that I am weak. In all of this, I have never blamed Waheguru, but instead everyday I ask for forgiveness for the things that I may have done wrong. I dont want to lose faith, but with every passing day, I fear what may happen to me or what I will do.
My deep sympathies are with you, me too experiencing the same problem in my life today but the only advise i can suggest to you in this moment is keep doing Simran of Dhan Guru Nanak.